Journal Entry 4 --- Problem between Mother and I

Just couple weeks ago, my mother took me to a fabulous café without telling me why. Due to my precise intuition, I knew that there must be something wrong since Mom seldom took me outside alone. Just as expected, my mother started talking about some serious topics which did not interest me at all.
Mom started complaining that I’m not her sweet little daughter any more. She said that she cannot get with the change on me since I got into NTHU and lives in HsinChu in weekdays. She said that I used to share all the things happened in school with her including my grades, friends or even love affairs of my classmates. Mom added, “However, now you seldom chat these things with me. Every weekend, when you are in home you just sleep all day long or keep watching TV. To you, TV is more important than me. ” To my great astonishment, the tears welled up in her eyes. I was totally frightened by the awful scene.
Mother looked at me with a helpless expression on her face since she’s depressed that her beloved daughter does not want to share her happiness or sorrow with her as before. At that moment, I just could not utter a word for many reasons. Firstly, I never thought of what Mother said as such a serious problem. It’s hard to understand why she cares about this so much. Secondly, sometimes it’s hard to explain the activities we have in campus to my parents because they are away from universities for a long time. Their response always discourages me from telling more details to them. Most important of all, my mother tends to derive what I tell her. For example, she believes that I got a boy friend just because I mention the boy’s name frequently. It really bothers me a lot.
I think that is so-called ‘generation gap’. I know it’s hard to overcome the gap especially my parents and I do not live together now; as a result, we have comparatively less time to get along. However, to me it is the high time we should communicate and negotiate more with each other or we will become more and more unfamiliar with each other. I love my mom very much so I’m willing to try and to sharpen our relationship with my whole effort. I’ll be more patient when talking to her and ease her nervous feeling of losing her daughter by action.